I am flawed

All this flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through;
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, reassurance, pleasure, are goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin;
I talk of love- a scholar's parrot may talk Greek-
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.
-C.S. Lewis

"I think Jesus feels strongly about communicating the idea of our brokenness, and I think it is worth reflection" -Donald Miller

Lately I have been thinking a lot about how broken I am (Or more aware to the monster living inside) and how good God is. Society is so selfish and I am no exception. I often push God away, much to my own detriment. It is usually to the point where I am close to running away that I remember to let God comfort me. Usually I find it easier to do things myself, maybe this is due to supporting myself for so long. This personality trait usually does not work so well with God.

Sometimes I forget that everything is not about what I want, need and demand. This usually manifests itself into thinking I am always right (I am also very stubborn), when sometimes I am very far off. This past week I have felt very comforted by God, making is much easier to abide in Him. It is very nice to feel God's comfort after a long time of running away.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer."
-2 Corinthians 1:3-6